is from me this week.
Jealously is just not an emotion that presents itself like an unwanted facial pimple in your thirties. It is a way we treat others in our lives. I have learned a lot about this word, this emotion, and the way it makes us look in the eyes of those around us.
It makes us look ugly, fat, unwanted, unloved, unkind, uncaring, without intrigity, and most of all inability to face ourselves in the mirror. Everything we strive not to be.
The last few days have been hell on me with aspects of family relationships. I have turned to the book "think like a lady but act like a man" by steve harvey, the house of night series by p c cast and daughter, and Kerrelyn Sparks books. Instead of allowing myself to get sucked into the vortex of the other person's jealous outrage or yelling spree. I have walked away. I have waited for them to be in a better frame of mind, and of course Karma. Its a .....I'll let you fill in the blanks at this point.
Even when confronted in a better mood this person in my life is in denial like the river the nile. I have determined that life will remain unpleasant until the life lesson this person is suppose to learn is learned.
I have learned to speak up with I feel this way about anything. Not just my displeasure in the situation but the feelings I feel and way. It has helped reduce the fire that is being kindled on the other side.
thanks you gals and guys!
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